I have been evaluating myself the past few days.

First it was the reality that, I'm a band geek. Yes, that means, basically I don't have that washboard abs, or that atheletic good looks yada yada. Yes, all I understand is playing notes on muah saxophone. And, whatever atheletic ability I even had has been greatly reduced by 50% due to physical problems. Ah, but being a band geek does have it's positives.

Next, the only thing I'm above average at is playing the drums. Yeah, but at this era, no one digs that anymore, cept true musicians of course. Luckily, I'm doing it because I like it.

And its not as though I'm rich because after all, its my parents' money. For all you know, the cash goes to charities. Hah. Well dang.

Life, is'nt that bad though. It's normal I think. But, neither does it turn me into some "larger than life" character. I'm just me. No looks, no body, no cash, no talent, just one life.

What really spurned this on was the fact that I watched 40 yr old virgin today. And, it didnt take much to realise (the thought wasnt even there at the first place), that I'm not a sex god. I will probably be a 99 yr old virgin. Plus, the graduation from college. Recieved cards from people and some comments here and there. Really made me reflect on myself as an individual. No very satisfying I must say.

BUT, ha, this is me, take it or leave it.

Well for something different. Theres the school of music and arts, and the teachers there have a writeup about their histories. The first person on the list is someone I aspire to be. And hopefully will start to be in a few months time. Check this webbie out - http://soma.com.sg/

Now heres a good song.
one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve

in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go

i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i'm going through

in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go

no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand, you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
just let me go

Cheekydeon has graduated.