So time flies and I'm starting to see a whole batch of friends ORDing. I don't have much time left to serve either and I'm just glad its coming to an end. A very smooth one I hope. So tired now adays, just going to work and practicing for long hours is enough to kill. And then theres practice, very intense practice in fact, during the weekends. Its really rewarding it terms of what is learned but it just sucks the energy straight outta you. Just chilling at honey's house that day I almost fell asleep in front of the TV, and it was only around 930? So this is what its like to be exhausted. I didn't even feel this way during the As and definitely not the Os.

Some how I feel this is the year where everything changes, destiny changes, decisions, life in general. People are leaving, people are growing, no longer in the comfy nests of security we constructed around ourselves anymore. I actually feel myself aging. So many people are crossing borders, I actually hope to do so myself but mostly with a heavy heart, cause my nest is just so damn comfy. I'm really giving it all up for something thats most cloudy. But I know regrets will pour if I don't go? But is there any room for failure?

Now a days I rather spend a working night just chilling with the orange lights dimmed and just listening to stuff I have never listened to before. Just doing loads and loads of readings. Trying to camp my senses down, after getting them hammered on by the drums the whole day.

Honey! Dont worry I understand your schedule! Hahaha partly, thats why I don't wanna study something I don't like cause I cannot imagine the burden. Lucky for you, you like it alot! I support you to the fullest!

I love you so very much.